Today, June 22. (well probably the 23rd by the time I actually post this)
One month from the big 30.... thoughts?
My mind has been out of control lately... thoughts and ponderings about life and purpose and where we are going and what it all means... you know, the usual.
I have been thinking a lot about the last decade, my 20s. A decade full of just change, change, and more change. Incredible growth, excruciating pain, indescribable joy... highs, lows... marriage, babies...life, death.
I think the 20s have been a bit extreme for me. Where as the "normal" life plan would include college then career, moving into your own place... maybe marriage and a kid or two before you hit 30. Mine has been marriage, then babies (twins!), then buying a home, more babies, then college, running a business and opening a store... and in the midst of that losing my grandmother, baby daughter, and father.
It has been... real. a whole lotta real.
Sometimes I feel like it is too much. Many times in the past decade I have felt like life is spinning out of control. Like nothing is certain and everything is always up in the air, changing and whirling around and all I can do is hold on for dear life.
But thankfully God always reels me back in, levels me out, comforts and gives me peace and He seems to always refresh my spirit just when I need it.
So that is where I will start my 30 to 30.
#1 Reason I am who I am today... my relationship with Christ. He has been the anchor that keeps my mind, my soul, my sanity grounded. He keeps me from getting paralyzed with fear and worry about the future. His precious grace has saved me over and over again and I just really can't put into words all the ways He has carried me through the dark and the light, the good and the bad.
I feel blessed every day... so much more than I deserve. The greatest gifts God has given me in the last 10 years are, of course, my husband and children. In one month Goose and I will also celebrate a decade of marriage. I'll write more about this later, but there is no way I would have made it this far without that guy.
So the countdown is on...
I plan to post here every day with little tidbits...where I am, what I've learned, goals, dreams, hopes for the next 30. Dust off the old blog here and hopefully document the next big change that is happening...