Tuesday, June 24, 2014

29 to 30: The next big thing...

Oh yeah, 2 posts in 2 days.

Miracles do happen.

So what's the next big change happening around the Bilsland house???

I''ll give you one guess...

ERRRRR- Wrong!!

I know what you're thinking, 

Hudson's almost 2... bout that time...

but alas, no more babies (probably) for this girl.

Nope, actually this time we are (really for reals) moving. I know we have been talking about on and off for the past 2 years, but this time we are actually putting our house up for sale.

We had our real estate agent come out Sunday afternoon and tell us what we needed to do before listing and we are planning on putting it on the market by Friday.

We have been cleaning and decluttering all weekend and oh my word, we have so much JUNK in our house! You would think being such a small place and having just did some major spring cleaning there wouldn't be all that much.

But you would be wrong.

We are finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel now... we have somewhat organized boxes to store, bags of trash, big stuff headed to the dump, and thrift store drop offs. Then, we will pressure wash the outside and paint the boys room (yes, the ridiculous bright blue is going to be gone... 'tear) and we will be ready to list!

I am not going to lie, I have already teared up several times just while cleaning, and we haven't even sold it yet! I really love our little house... I know it is too small for a family of 6, but I honestly don't mind the size. It is cozy... and manageable. I am actually a little nervous about having a bigger space... more rooms for my kids to destroy (it is almost supernatural how quickly those boys can mess up a room).

It is time though. Because we have been on the brink of moving for the past two years, I haven't really put a lot into updating our home to reflect our lives now. My own style and taste has changed a lot, and I am excited to get into a new place that feels more personal... finally get some updated family pictures on the wall and some new furniture- woohoo!

I mean seriously, I don't have one single printed picture of Hubba in our house... and he is almost 2! #momfail

So anyway, we found a home that we adore. It has everything we have been looking for- 5 acres, unique open floor plan, 4 bedrooms... BUT, it is a short sale, and the guy who owns it is a.... notsoeasytoworkwith person. So there are a lot of hoops to jump through just to get started on an offer. Plus, it had renters for the past few years and the house needs a LOT of TLC to get it back in shape.

So we are now trying to decide whether we go forward with the cool house that we love, but will be tons of extra work... or go for a more "move in ready" home that's a little more boring.

Of course, this is all dependent on selling our house.

Soooo, lots to think about, lots up in the air. We are praying about it, and hopefully soon we will be putting in an offer on our "let's grow old together" home.

Next up:: Introducing... the Bilslands.

Monday, June 23, 2014

30 to 30: Post One: the countdown is on...

Today, June 22. (well probably the 23rd by the time I actually post this)

One month from the big 30.... thoughts?

My mind has been out of control lately... thoughts and ponderings about life and purpose and where we are going and what it all means... you know, the usual.

I have been thinking a lot about the last decade, my 20s. A decade full of just change, change, and more change. Incredible growth, excruciating pain, indescribable joy... highs, lows... marriage, babies...life, death.

I think the 20s have been a bit extreme for me. Where as the "normal" life plan would include college then career, moving into your own place... maybe marriage and a kid or two before you hit 30. Mine has been marriage, then babies (twins!), then buying a home, more babies, then college, running a business and opening a store... and in the midst of that losing my grandmother, baby daughter, and father.

It has been... real. a whole lotta real.

Sometimes I feel like it is too much. Many times in the past decade I have felt like life is spinning out of control. Like nothing is certain and everything is always up in the air, changing and whirling around and all I can do is hold on for dear life.

But thankfully God always reels me back in, levels me out, comforts and gives me peace and He seems to always refresh my spirit just when I need it.

So that is where I will start my 30 to 30. 

#1 Reason I am who I am today... my relationship with Christ. He has been the anchor that keeps my mind, my soul, my sanity grounded. He keeps me from getting paralyzed with fear and worry about the future. His precious grace has saved me over and over again and I just really can't put into words all the ways He has carried me through the dark and the light, the good and the bad.

I feel blessed every day... so much more than I deserve. The greatest gifts God has given me in the last 10 years are, of course, my husband and children. In one month Goose and I will also celebrate a decade of marriage. I'll write more about this later, but there is no way I would have made it this far without that guy.

So the countdown is on... 

I plan to post here every day with little tidbits...where I am, what I've learned, goals, dreams, hopes for the next 30.  Dust off the old blog here and hopefully document the next big change that is happening...