Tuesday, March 30, 2010

TMI: My Baggage



Sorry if this a little long... it was on my mind and I just had to get it out =)


I know most bloggers censor themselves somewhat, especially Christians; most blogs I read are happy and funny or very spiritual, and you don’t learn too much of the dirt in someone’s life…

Which I am not saying is a bad thing; I mean who wants all their baggage out on the internet for the world to judge?

Well, I am going to share something about myself and I hope you won't judge me for it =)


===============================================

My post from yesterday
(flasher girl in particular) got me thinking about my past.

I didn’t get a great look at her
(thankfully) but I would guess she was about 16.

She was in a car full of people, she was obviously drunk trying to impress them and get attention. I started wondering what was going on in her home life, what issues was she dealing with that made her act out like that.

Maybe she was just hyper and goofing off… but maybe there was a deeper issue… maybe that girl’s life was out of control.

Like mine was at her age.






I started thinking about all the ridiculously, stupid things I did as a teen... and I am not talking about the fun, irresponsible stuff you do when you don’t have a care in the world.


I am talking about the stuff you do when you grow up in a broken home with a single mother who can’t keep tabs on you because she is just trying to keep food on the table and the electricity turned on.


When you are the “poor” kid who is disrespectful and completely hard-headed… who doesn’t want anyone feeling sorry for her or telling her what to do… The kid who drops out of school; who moves in with friends
(or whoever will take her) and lives each day for the next temporary high.


I am not going to go into all the details… but I am thankful to be alive, to not be in jail, an alcoholic/drug addict or worse.


I am so thankful that me and my older brother and sister eventually realized the life we were leading was not who we wanted to be.


That God had bigger and better plans for us…


And I share this with you not for sympathy, but because sometimes life puts us in a bubble and we don't realize just how much we are blessed…


Right now, I am living life abundantly. I have a husband, beautiful children, a happy home that I never in a million years thought I would have. My mom and siblings are my best friends, and my whole family means the world to me. Even with all that has happened in the past year, I still feel like I have so much more than I deserve.


If you met any of us now, you would never believe who we were back then.


And although I have struggled with regrets, I realize that my past isn’t to be ashamed of
or proud of. It is there, it will always be there, but I am forgiven.


That is what I focus on.


I am FORGIVEN. I am free.


But there are still millions of broken families in this country, with kids who are wallowing in self-pity and self-doubt like I was… kids that feel like no one really cares if they succeed... so they make decisions that could be completely detrimental to their lives…


and these kids are not always who you think they are.


We didn’t “look” like bad kids.







(My brother and I)




I know that the reason my siblings and I were able to turn our lives around is because of Jesus
(and my granny praying for us every single day)… We spent a lot of time in church growing up, and even though that wasn’t enough to counter-balance the problems at home, it was enough for us to know He was there…

and that if we returned to Him, we would be changed.


And we were.


Completely.


I hope that God will give me the opportunity to work with troubled youth... because I believe there is hope for every one of them.


...and because I don’t want to get to the point where I start thinking that I am “better” than a loud girl who decides to flash a woman in front of an elementary school... or those grungy kids walking by, smelling like smoke with bloodshot eyes and a potty mouth... or the homeless man who reeks of alcohol sitting on the side of the road...


Because the
only difference between me and them...


is that I accepted my Savior’s sweet grace and forgiveness and asked Him to change me.


...and He did.


Monday, March 29, 2010

This is NOT Mardi Gras




Because of the gorgeous weather, we spent a lot of time outside this week...


I took the boys to the park to have a little picnic... we ate lunch and then they wanted to feed the ducks.


Can you guess what happened right after this picture?





Well it definitely did NOT include Reese running straight into the pond and getting soaked.




Then, when we got home...




Reese definitely did NOT decide to give himself a facial...






When I came into the room and caught him,


He definitely did NOT say,


"Look Mama, yogurt!"



Later, I decided to do a little spring cleaning...


As the boys were sleeping, I did NOT go on a rampage and grab every toy in the house that was loud and annoying and pack it in a box to give away.






The boys didn't even notice (spoiled much?) ...


and it did NOT feel so good to get rid of some of the clutter.



Finally,


Goose and I got to enjoy a beautiful, stress-free weekend.


For once, we didn't have a million things going on...


Goose took advantage of our sunny Saturday by mowing the lawn, which
definitely did NOT result in lots of John Deere rides for the boys.





We then decided to take the boys to a playground, which is by a track so I could run while Goose watched the boys.



As I am running around the track
(which happens to be right next to a busy road)



I definitely did
NOT hear a high pitched,



"WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOO!!"



As I look up at the street, the screaming girl passing by in a black SUV



definitely did
NOT lift up her shirt...


in the middle of town.


at 3:00 in the afternoon.





...and flash me.





Nope.



That would
NEVER happen in life outside a sitcom.



Hope you all have an awesome week!!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Spiritual Sunday: Hush...






I don’t know about other Christians, but when God convicts me about a certain subject… it is everywhere!


It will come up in conversation; I will see it on TV, hear it on the radio or read it in a book…


Since I was a teen, I have been wondering…



(this was in my mailbox yesterday morning)



I have talked and talked and
talked about this subject with my “girls”… many who are in their mid- 20s like me…


We have all had these same feelings of insignificance and confusion.


Constantly trying to figure out:


Who am I? Who do I want to be, what career do I want to have, what outreaches would I like to be a part of, what talents do I have, what kind of life do I want to lead?


Which sometimes equates to
:


I want people to think I am a good person, I want to be a person that others look up to.

I want to do something important and noteworthy.

I want other people's approval.


We focus completely on ourselves and what we want out of life, but we skirt around the real issue.


What does God want?


I have
finally come to a realization…


I. Need. To. Be. Quiet.



Stop complaining, stop obsessing, stop over-analyzing...


I am so busy scrutinizing every single aspect of my life that I am missing all the opportunities that I have to just live it!


To enjoy it…


I know what God wants from me. It is actually very simple.


He wants me to love Him and love others.


That’s it.


We make God and our lives so complicated.


If I am truly loving and serving Him, He will take me where He wants me to go.
It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks.
I just have to let go of all my personal garbage and focus.



On Him.



Let the other stuff just fall away.


He has prepared a path for us, but we aren't going to have it all figured out tomorrow.


It is a lifestyle... He can and will lead us day to day.


We just have to have patience and tune in.


Stop talking...


And
Listen.





Last night, I read this email that was exactly what I needed…

It is from a writer with Proverbs 31 Ministries named Sheri Braendel.

I think she states it perfectly…

“…I decided that day to stop talking about myself. I decided to quit depending on other people's thoughts about what I was doing, or how I was doing it. I decided that the only One I needed to impress was God. I knew that it wasn't going to happen without thought and planning. This desire for approval was not going to go away by itself.

First, I sat down and had a good cry. Then I consulted God and prayed. I made a decision to be quiet about myself for 30 days. Whenever I talked to someone, I would not mention "me" at all. I would not recount my accomplishments, my breakthroughs, or my shortcomings.

Nothing.


I decided to begin listening to others as if hearing them for the first time. If they asked about me, I would simply answer, "I'm doing great, thank you." That's it. No more information. I wanted to turn outward and begin to invest in other people's lives.

…It's funny how when we turn attention away from ourselves, we end up feeling more complete in the end.

Because truly, the only thing that completes us is God.



Ephesians 2:10:

10) For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand so that we would walk in them.

Friday, March 26, 2010

That Guy...




My Little Life



Just when I think I might do something else for a Friday post, I check out Mama M.'s questions and they are just so much fun to answer... so here I go!



1. Did you pass your driver's test on the first try?


Hmmmm, let me tell ya a lil' story...

Once upon a time there was this 16 year old girl named Lily. She was dating a... not-so-nice guy. She was ready to take her driver's test but didn't have a car of her own so she decided to take her boyfriend's pick-up truck. This truck had extra large tires that Lily did not realize made turning a little difficult.


So Lily takes her test... thinks she did okay.


Not so fast... says driver-test lady.


You went over the yellow line with your over-sized tires...


YOU FAIL!!


okay, so Lily was a tad upset. She had never failed a test in her life.

She goes home to her waiting boyfriend and tells him she failed with tears in her eyes (hey i was 16!). Instead of giving her a big hug and telling her it would be okay....

He tells her that she is being a big fat baby and says she is stupid for being upset.


What a sweetheart.


So sorry I didn't end up with that guy.



2. What is your most embarrassing moment?


I have embarrassing moments quite often...

hmmm latest one, I slipped and fell when I was bowling a few weeks ago.

Like, went to throw the ball down the lane and my legs slide right out from under me.

That's always fun since, you know,
EVERYONE is watching you... and there are about 15 other lanes full of people that see you hit the floor as well.


yeah, good times.


3. What TV show would you like to be on- Oprah, Biggest Loser, or What Not to Wear?

Right now it would be What Not to Wear...FOR SERIOUS.

I am actually writing a post about my wardrobe woes so stay tuned for that in the near-future.


4. Would you ever get plastic surgery and what kind?

I don't know if I could ever justify the money it would cost to do it,
but I would love to get some tummy work done...


twins in a 5'1 body... nuff' said.


5. What are your favorite jeans to wear?




All my favorites are Express jeans that I have had for about 5-6 years... Although the last few times I have been to the store, most of their jeans are ***bedazzled*** out... which I am just not into.


So I guess I will be looking for a new favorite brand. =)



Happy Friday Everyone!

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

You are my Sunshine




Today I am thankful...




for this little guy.


Who is growing up way too fast.




I wrote him a little belated b-day letter
and thought I would share... (I try to hand-write my kids letters each year)

I did it for the twins and realized I forgot little Reese! So I am making up for it now =)




Dear Reesie,


We have spent 2 wonderful years with you so far and you have changed so much!

You were born on March 5th, and you weighed 8 lbs. 12 oz.




Your personality started out so quiet. You were the best baby in the whole world. You slept soundly, you hardly ever cried, and you just loved to smile and snuggle.


Your daddy said we hit the jackpot with you. =)









Your brothers didn’t really know what to do with you at first.





But now you play and laugh
(and fight) like crazy.





You boys are so much fun to watch!







(back in his slimmer days)


I had no idea in the beginning that you would be Mr. Personality. Your facial expressions are so animated! I can't help but laugh every time you talk.




You think you are big stuff (well in some ways you are ya little chunker). You are so mischievous, but it is hard to get mad when you constantly have the biggest smile on your face.


You say your words so well and I just love to hear you putting new sentences together.





You love your babies (stuffed animals), books, and Dora and you still love to cuddle.


You fit perfectly in my lap and I know I will miss the days when you don’t fit there anymore.


Please know Reese’s pieces, you are loved!






I thank God for you every day, and I can’t wait to see what else He has in store for you!



Love Always and Forever,


Mama





P.S. I am also thankful for my sweet little niece Nora, who turns 2 today!


Happy Birthday Nora!


I loved being preggers with your mommy, and it is so fun to watch you and Reese grow up together!










Since we didn't get to see you today, Reese wants to go ahead and wish you...




video



(please forgive my singing)



What are you thankful for today?


Monday, March 22, 2010

NOT Spring Breaking it...




~My NOT Me Week~


So at the beginning of this week, I did
NOT realize that the Warrior Dash is only 8 weeks away and that my aunt (who is 15 years older than me) is already up to running 2 miles (starting from nothing)....


I did
NOT decide this was unacceptable and ran every. single. day this week. My legs do NOT feel like rubber bands that are about to snap. I am NOT insanely ridiculously slightly competitive.



On Friday, I did
NOT decide to go to Gulf Shores with my mom at the last minute to see the 38th Annual Outdoor Art Show (clever name huh?)



I did
NOT welcome some quality time with Moms and a break from the house.



On the way down, we did NOT realize that it was some colleges' Spring Break and they were definitely NOT par.ty.in it up.


I mean JAMMIN.



My mom did NOT think it was hilarious to pull up next to a car load of said spring breaking guys and pace them for about ten minutes down the highway as they danced and yelled who knows what at our car.



I did NOT sink down into my seat and cover my face with the book I was reading.



I did NOT feel like I was 16 years old again.




The art show was pretty uneventful…
I love looking at the art and crafts- always something new and interesting.




There were lots of people there that had just finished running a road race…


I did NOT laugh out loud thinking about how Goose would look in a pair of these:






WE also did a little shopping while we there...


I definitely did NOT do a double take when I seen the name of this store:









They were closed, but I definitely did NOT want to go inside and see what exactly Hooch's Mama was selling...




I was happy to get home yesterday and see the boys. I picked up a few toys for them at the craft show...





Nolan did NOT shoot Ty in the face within 5 minutes of having his rubber-band gun.





And then of course Ty would NEVER slap himself in the eye with his slingshot.




(I think closing his eyes affected his aim)



What was I thinking?


Seriously… Best. Mom. Ever.



Then as I was eating breakfast this morning, I definitely did
NOT get up from the table and come back to find this along with my 3 giggling sons:








Coffee a la Cheerios anyone?



A great start to any week.


Happy Monday =)

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Don't Go Chasin Waterfalls- Friday

My Little Life

Check out Mama M's blog to participate



Okay, I switched up the order of the questions a little... you'll see why:



4. What's the worst job you ever had?

Yes, yes… worst job ever. McDonald’s… that’s right I admit it, I worked at Mcd’s when I was 13-14. I actually think I was working there illegally because I didn’t even have a worker’s permit. In all honesty, the job wasn’t as bad as it sounds… you know besides the whole minimum wage thing… but at 13, who cares how much money you make!



1.Have you ever had a celeb sighting?


I have actually… I don’t know if y’all remember the little gem Waterfalls





That's right, when I was working at (see question above) Little Miss Chili (middle) from TLC came rollin through in a black SUV and we were all starstruck! Seriously, TLC was at the time my favorite group~ Crazy.Sexy.Cool will always be one of my favorite albums
...


don't judge me.




2. What temperature do you keep your house?


It seems to always be around 70… although we wouldn’t really know now because SOMEBody-
ahem- Nolan- broke the cover of the thermostat.



3. Do you notice dust at other people’s homes?


Ummm, I am what you call unobservant…
like, do not notice when friends get haircuts or lose 30 lbs unobservant… so, unless you have like 2 inch thick dust in your house and want to point it out to me, I probably won’t notice.



5. What is your most sentimental possession?

(This was the question I suggested)


Right now, my most sentimental possession is this:





a small shell I picked up in St. George when I was pregnant with Evie… of course, it is even more special to me now. If you want to read why it is so sentimental, I wrote about it here.




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Monday, March 15, 2010

NOT this or that...



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NOT me Monday



The twins had so much fun at their friend’s birthday party on Saturday. Their friend had a Fun Bus come to the party and all 3 of the boys did
NOT scream and jump and play the entire time.






Nolan did
NOT say, “Mom, that was the best birthday party EVER!”



I of course, did
NOT wear two completely (I mean completely) different socks to the party because it was laundry day and I didn’t feel like rummaging through piles of laundry to find a pair that matches…






Reese’s pieces did
NOT move into a big boy bed last night. He stayed in bed and slept the entire night without a problem.





I am
NOT so excited for him to be out of his crib. I, of course, would NEVER climb into his bed and snuggle with him before he goes to sleep.


This is
NOT one of my favorite things about being a mom...




Ty has been a little extra ridiculous quirky this week.



He was definitely
NOT coloring like this…



(Is this really comfortable??)





I then did
NOT catch him watching Dora like this:




(I think I might sign him up for gymnastics)





I took this picture last night for 3 reasons…






The first was
NOT to document Goose in the background making one of the only home-cooked meals we had this week.



The second was to take a picture of my hair. I did
NOT finally get it colored. I would NEVER let my roots grow out 3 inches before coloring it. I definitely have NOT been sporting a lot of hats over the past few weeks.



The third reason was to take the last picture I will ever take in these glasses. I have
NOT had to wear my old glasses for the past week while waiting on my new contacts, and they are NOT the worst. glasses. ever. They are NOT completely crooked and they are NOT the wrong prescription so everything is blurry.


I do
NOT loathe detest like these glasses.


I am probably
NOT going to do a happy dance and run over them with my car before throwing them away.




BTW, If you are wondering how I get all these pictures, well I definitely do
NOT keep my camera on the kitchen counter charged up all the time so I can take pics whenever the boys do silly things around the house… or in my purse when we go out so I don't miss anything.



I am so
NOT that mom.




Happy Monday everyone! :-)


Sunday, March 14, 2010

Spiritual Sunday- Who is Jesus?



I have been reading a book of excerpts by C.S. Lewis called
Words to Live By.

It is a good read, C.S. Lewis was definitely an incredible thinker... I like reading "deep" essays, even if sometimes I don't always "get" everything I'm reading. =)

This was one of my favorite parts that I came across yesterday. Thought I would share for Spiritual Sunday this week...



~ "What are we to make of Jesus Christ?

This is a question which has, in a sense, a frantically comic side. For the real question is not what are we to make of Christ, but what is He to make of us? The picture of a fly sitting deciding what it is going to make of an elephant has comic elements about it. But perhaps the questioner meant what are we to make of Him in the sense of “How are we to solve the historical problem set us by the recorded sayings and acts of this Man?”

This problem is to reconcile two things. On the one hand you have got the almost generally admitted depth and sanity of His moral teaching, which is not very seriously questioned, even by those who are opposed to Christianity. In fact, I find when I am arguing with very anti-God people that they rather make a point of saying, “I am entirely in favour of the moral teaching of Christianity”—and there seems to be a general agreement that in the teaching of this Man and of his immediate followers, moral truth is exhibited at its purest and best.

It is not sloppy idealism, it is full of wisdom and shrewdness. The whole thing is realistic, fresh to the highest degree, the product of a sane mind. That is one phenomenon...

The other phenomenon is quite the appalling nature of this Man’s theological remarks. You all know what I mean, and I want rather to stress the point that the appalling claim which this Man seems to be making is not merely made at one moment of His career. There is, of course, the one moment which led to His execution. The moment at which the High Priest said to Him,

“Who are you?”

“I am the Anointed, the Son of the uncreated God, and you shall see Me appearing at the end of all history as the judge of the Universe.” ...

Well, that is the other side. On the one side clear, definite moral teaching. On the other, claims which, if not true, are those of a megalomaniac, compared with whom Hitler was the most sane and humble of men.


There is no half-way house and there is no parallel in other religions. If you had gone to Buddha and asked him “Are you the son of Bramah?” he would have said, “My son you are still in the vale of illusion.” If you had gone to Socrates and asked, “Are you Zeus?” he would have laughed at you. If you would have gone to Mohammed and asked, “Are you Allah?” he would first have rent his clothes and then cut your head off. If you had asked Confucius, “Are you Heaven?”, I think he would have probably replied, “Remarks which are not in accordance with nature are in bad taste.”


The idea of a great moral teacher saying what Christ said is out of the question. In my opinion, the only person who can say that sort of thing is either God or a complete lunatic suffering from that form of delusion which undermines the whole mind of man. If you think you are a poached egg, when you are looking for a piece of toast to suit you, you may be sane, but if you think you are God, there is no chance for you...

“What are we to make of Christ?” There is no question of what we can make of Him, it is entirely a question of what He intends to make of us. You must accept or reject the story...

The things He says are very different from what any other teacher has said. Others say, “This is the truth about the Universe. This is the way you ought to go,” but He says, “I am the way the Truth, and the Way, and the Life.” He says, “No man can reach absolute reality, except through Me. Try to retain your own life and you will be inevitably ruined. Give yourself away and you will be saved.” He says, “If you are ashamed of Me, if, when you hear this call, you turn the other way, I also will look the other way when I come again as God without disguise. If anything whatever is keeping you from God and from Me, whatever it is, throw it away. If it is your eye, pull it out. If it is your hand, cut it off. If you put yourself first you will be last.

Come to Me everyone who is carrying a heavy load, I will set that right. Your sins, all of them, are wiped out, I can do that. I am Re-birth, I am Life. Eat Me, drink Me, I am your Food. And finally, do not be afraid, I have overcome the whole Universe.” That is the issue." ~




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Thursday, March 11, 2010

College and Car Accidents

My Little Life




1.How much time do you spend on the computer a day?



Well, after taking a break last week from all things internet related… I have decided to cut down my computer time.



I am going to try to get on a schedule where I keep internet time to 2 hours a day… Hmmm, I don’t know how that will work when I start back school in June since I take a lot of my classes online but I am going to try! =)



2. Will you pay for your children's college or raise them to pay for their own way?



Okay, so this might seem awful, but I will not feel bad if we can’t fully pay for our boy’s college education.


I
hope that we will be financially able to help them, BUT I don’t think there is anything wrong with working through college. My hubby and I are paying for our own education (although his has been far more expensive than mine)… I did the first 2 years at community college and now I am moving to a bigger university, making it a lot more affordable.


I will also not be pushing them to go to college if they are not “college” people… Goose feels a little differently on this =) There have been successful people in my family
(artists/carpenters) who never went to college.

I just want them to do something they are really passionate about... if they need to go to college to do it... great!





3. Have you ever been in a car accident?


I am not the, ahem... best driver in the world... but I have only caused one accident.

A few years ago I pulled in front of a car and had a little fender bender… the guy I hit tried to say he was injured and all sorts of stuff, but thankfully my insurance wasn't buying it
(seriously, not injured at all)

He sure was mad though!!

He got out of his car and yelled at me for a few minutes… sorry dude, my bad.




4. What is your favorite book?


Okay, I could list a lot of books on here… I am a book NERD, always have been. Of course, the Bible will always be the book that I get the most out of… Duh.


I just read
Same Kind of Different as Me on Bloom, and it was awesome.
It is a true story… I would definitely recommend it.



P.S. I just joined a website called Paperback Swap
(it’s exactly what it sounds like)… which I understand makes me even more of a dork.




5. Do you make your bed every day?


BAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA….



No.



HAPPY FRIDAY =)



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Update: It’s Official

Remember this kid...






you know, the one that likes to eat... everything.


Well, Reese went to his 2 year appointment yesterday.


The nurse put him on the scale and I believe her exact words were…


“Good Lord!” (true story)



… He weighs 32 pounds. I figured our doc would lecture us about his weight gain (I got that lecture with the twins almost every appointment. I had to say, no I don't give them sweets, they don't drink pure juice, NEVER have soda... they're just chunky okay!!)


But she said that Reese must have hit a major growth spurt because he went from the 50th percentile to 95th in both weight and height… hmmmmm, that must be why all his pants are suddenly high-waters…


So it's official; he is a huge kid… I don’t know where he gets that.
Goose and I are not very big people. The twins were chubby, but never tall.


Anyway, so while Goose took Reese to the pediatrician, I had to make an emergency appointment to the dentist...


Because my horribly clumsy totally graceful son Ty was running across concrete at the park and wiped out…



oh, don’t worry… he caught himself…



with his face.








Which led to this....





Thankfully, our dentist is awesome and didn’t even charge us to see him. She took an x-ray and said right now it looks ok. Since it's a baby tooth, they don’t need to do anything unless it changes or starts hurting him.





So he’s just going to look a little.... crooked... until he loses his baby teeth.


Ty and I also had another appointment... for our eyes!






Ty did awesome at his appointment, and his eyes are fine... Yay!!! NO glasses!!


My appointment was not so great... in case you didn’t know, I have the WORST eyes ever… My prescription changed again. Now it is -5.00 in one eye and -4.75 in the other.


I am putting Lasik on my 101 in 1001. Seriously, I am sooooo over bad vision...


After my exam, the eye doctor wanted me to buy my contacts from them for $270.00 for a year supply. I was like, look dude (okay I didn’t really say dude) ummm, I usually get them online…


He was like, hmmm well I think this is the best price you will be able to get.


I said okay, I’ll look and if you are cheaper, I will order them from you. (Goose was proud of me... I am not so good at saying no to a sales pitch) But I knew that was way over-priced.



I used Visiondirect.com last time. I wear Optix Air night-n-day (love them!!!) and I was able to get a year supply for $165.


Plus a $40 rebate and free shipping… which means it only costs $125.00 for 12 pair.



Guess what, Mr. Eyedoctorman, you weren’t cheaper…


I saved $145.00 by NOT buying from you.



So anyway, now I am off to take the twin's pre-k applications to the DOE…

They are sooooo excited about starting school... we will see how long that lasts…



Happy Thursday =)