Sunday, January 24, 2010

My Season

I have spent a ridiculous amount of my 25 years thinking (
obsessing) about what my “purpose” is.

“What am I doing with my life?” is a question I would ask myself almost every day.

The past few years in college, I have constantly wondered what career path I should take (
changing my major three times!) …And I still think, “What if I make the wrong choice?”

My biggest concern was not wanting to waste my time doing something un-fulfilling… I wanted to do something that helps others, that changes lives, that makes the world a better place.

That is what I have obsessed about…

and I am finally starting to realize... I already am doing that.

I am a mother. I am raising three little boys.

I am laying the foundation for their lives; the building blocks that they will take with them into adulthood; the values that they will use when they get older to make good decisions and to get through the tough stuff.

I am introducing them to Jesus, teaching them how to pray and be thankful in all circumstances; to be kind and giving and to love the unlovable.

Through our interactions, my husband and I are showing them what marriage is so that they will have an example to use in their own relationships.

Every single day I am directly impacting them and the men they are going to be.

The Bible talks about the seasons of life…

My season right now is to be a mom. I fight the concept sometimes, but that
is my most important job.

While I still desire to move mountains and change the world, if I don’t become Mother Teresa tomorrow, my day will still be worthwhile because I loved my kids.

I held them, played with them, and read to them. I want them to remember all the moments that I stopped what I was doing, put the laundry basket down, or pulled myself away from the computer, and spent quality time with them. I don't ever want to feel like I took them for granted.

So that is why I let them pull up a chair and help me make dinner every night even if is a complete disaster and takes twice as long… because in the end what matters more, a clean kitchen or 3 little guys who love to cook?

Life is sooo fleeting... I only have a few precious years to make these memories. I don’t want to waste time worrying about my future when I have so much to enjoy right now, in this very moment.

I will, of course, continue to dream and have other goals, but most of that stuff can wait.

My purpose for now, is to be the best person I can be for my boys…

and I am happy with that.

Ecclesiastes 3:1~4

1 For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven:
2 a time to be born, and a time to die;
a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
3 a time to kill, and a time to heal;
a time to break down, and a time to build up;
4 a time to weep, and a time to laugh;
a time to mourn, and a time to dance;