Thursday, December 10, 2009

Dear Evie

Yesterday, David and I took the boys to the cemetery and let them decorate with flowers. They don't really understand too much, but they know Evie is in heaven with Jesus and Great-Granny. Hopefully they will be able to remember being a part of everything.

~My Aunt Stephanie read this for me at Evie's burial~

My dear little Evie,

The past few days have been quite a whirlwind.

I finally got to meet you. You weighed 4 pounds, 12 ounces and you were 17 inches long. I got to kiss your little face and hold your little hands. Your big brothers thought that you would have brown hair and they were right. You looked a lot like Ty, but you were the beautiful little girl that I dreamed you would be.

I want you to know how you turned our world upside down. 16 weeks ago, we learned that you were special. We learned that we might not have long with you here on Earth. We were scared and unsure about your future, but God held us so close and gave us peace. He helped us to enjoy every day we had with you. You were so active and strong. I cherished every kick and roll, and every chance I got to see you moving around.

The hospital nurses were just amazed with how many people came to see you and your mommy and daddy in the hospital. They said they could feel all the love around us, and they knew we would be okay.

People think we are so strong, but the only reason we can smile and laugh and get through the day is because God is carrying us through, and He has given us hope for the future.

I don’t have to worry about you sweet baby. You never have to experience pain or sorrow. You get to spend all your days with Jesus, and He is holding you close. I know it won’t be easy to go on without you here. I wish I could watch you grow up and play with your big brothers and become spoiled by your grandparents. I wish I could see you as a moody teenager and watch your daddy walk you down the aisle.

But I know God had a greater purpose for you. Your life has changed us and all those around us. You brought us closer to one another. We prayed together, cried together, and all of our faith grew because of you. We learned how to be more patient, caring, and humble. We learned how to trust God in everything and to love each other unconditionally. I will thank God every day for choosing us to be your parents. We now have an even greater reason to look forward to heaven.

There are no words to express how much we love you and miss you. You were a blessing and a miracle, baby Evie, and we will never be the same.

Love you always,